Decisions Made….

I’ve recently given some thought to why I make the decisions I do in life. And often-times am left to wonder if it’s really me making the decisions or not.

I try to stay aware of my current state of life, but there have been parts of the past that I can’t readily explain. Feelings change, as they will, and I’m left to wonder what caused me to decide to head in a certain direction to begin with.

The mind can be a bit tricky and sometimes what we think is the “right” choice to make turns out to be not such a wise one. But there’s no way we could have known that without the decisions that we made. Lessons learned in life, especially when dealing with other people, can be painful to experience.

I know I have to keep the faith and trust the journey and that includes being in situations that make me fearful or uneasy. I have to be willing to sit with the all of it until it becomes abundantly clear what action I should take. And even then, I’m not always sure what I’ve decided is in my best interest. But I also know I can’t sit idly by and let life continue without me playing a part in it.

Am I bound to make the decisions that I do? Or is it really fate playing itself out in my life? I’m not sure I know the answer to that one. I do know that I can’t change the past and what I’ve done, especially when it involves other people. I do the best I can in any given situation and when my best doesn’t seem to be working, I have to try something else.

So that’s where I’m at with thoughts on decision-making today. Just for today, I’ll follow the precepts of the serenity prayer: “Serenity to accept the things I cannot change; Courage to change the things I can; Pray for the wisdom to know the difference.”

David Lee

Numerical Synchronicity at Its Finest

I’ve been a big fan of synchronicity for quite a few years now and tonight, had a prime example of what I refer to as numerical synchronicity.

I posted the following card reading on social media this afternoon:

May be an image of bird and text that says '66 WHITE RAVEN SPIRTT Trust in the magic.'

#66 – WHITE RAVEN SPIRIT
Trust in the magic
“Protection Message: Are you being distracted by the illusion of a chaotic universe? Deep in your heart, you know the world is full of magic, and White Raven has appeared to remind you that the ways of the world can cause spiritual amnesia. Stay awake and alert, for Spirit wants you to enjoy the miracles all around you.

Remember, the evidence of divine order can be seen everywhere. Ask for a sign, and it shall be yours. Synchronicities happen all the time, so if you are in a time of challenge and feeling cynical, all you need to do is ask for a reminder. White Raven will appear to reassure you that all of this is leading to something better, for magic is in the wind.”

Notice the number of the card: 66

Later that same day, I received as a comment to my post a picture of a friend’s supper with the number 66 written on it. It just so happens that this friend has the same birthday, July 6th, as I do.

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A bit later, the same friend posted the temperature from her location, which is about an hour away from me…and you guessed it, 66 degrees!

May be an image of text that says 'PM PM 28% Boone Mostly Cloudy 66° H:75° L:55° National Weather Service: Wind advisory for Watauga County. Learn more > Next-Hour Precipitation -..... Now 10m 20m 30m 40m 50m Chance of drizzle in the next hour Now 9PM 60% 10PM 11PM 40% 12AM 50% 1AM 50% 2A 40 66° 66° 64° 63° 61° 59° 57'

When I messaged this friend to ask permission to use the pictures she had shared, I noticed an article I had shared with her five years ago…and the article dealt with the topic of synchronicity.

https://www.cnn.com/2015/12/29/us/odd-coincidences-synchronicity-the-other-side/index.html

So what does it all mean to me? I need to pay particular attention to the card reading that I got this afternoon and heed what it has to say.

The world is filled with messages with those who have an open mind, eyes, ears, and heart.

David Lee

The Journey Continues…

As we approach the summer months, in a year that could best be termed “unique”, I reflect on the many changes that have taken place in my life. I continue to teach in interim positions, currently in my second such assignment for this school year. There’s one month remaining in my latest gig and then it’s time for summer vacation.

I’m still getting used to living in the home I first occupied in 2003 and then moved out of for four years, before moving back in this past October. My daughter and granddaughter are now my new neighbors and it’s nice having family so close. But getting this house in order and making it feel more like a home has been a tall order. There was much work to be done and still quite a bit to do as the summer approaches.

My relationship life has had a lot of ups and downs this past year, and I now find myself once again living single. While I miss the companionship, I realize there are still a lot of things I need to work on to become the person I was intended to be. With some of the covid restrictions still in place, there’s now a lot of time that I’m home with my German shepherd Abby and am getting used to that all over again.

So I continue on the path I’ve been designed to lead. I still have a strong faith in God and know that He watches over me. I need to meditate on those things He would have me to do and follow where He leads.

David Lee

The Bookshelf…

I looked at my bookshelf this evening with a new set of eyes….

Of course, it does contain books. Each one carefully selected for its content and telling of my life’s journey this past many years.

But it contains so much more and, once again, each item selected as a sign of who I am and the journey I’ve been called to travel.

There’s pictures of my two adult children and I beam with pride as I reflect on the productive adults they have become. A Valentines Day card from my daughter that I found recently from years gone by, simply signed “I love you.” A copy of a newspaper article about a day in the life of my son, who is a police officer. And my favorite, a picture of the two of them together.

Another cherished part of the shelf’s display is a Valentines Day card from my girlfriend Lisa. The loving thoughts that it shares are a special reminder of our journey together. It includes the words “feeling incredibly lucky and proud to be the one who gets to call you “my love.” The love we share together is unique and uplifting.

Then there are two youth football helmets that represent two of my three school homes during my teaching career. The Eagles’ helmet is representative of Grandview Middle school, where I taught for twenty-two years. And then there’s the Redskins’ helmet, reminding me of the six years I spent at H.M. Arndt Middle School.

There also can be found on this bookshelf of mine a wooden drink bottle crate that contains over twenty 7-Up drink bottles. I started collecting bottles back in my teenage years and my collection used to occupy shelves just above my bed in my childhood home. There are a couple of 7-Up signs as well that remind me of my large collection of soda signs from various stores. A reminder of the time spent at my great-grandfather’s store, just a short distance from where I’m living now.

There are other odds and ends to be found on the bookshelf as well. Several small wind-up clocks, that of course have all the numbers displayed. An Indian chief statue that represents the last school I worked at before retiring. A photo album that stores pictures of my brother and sister and I from our childhoods is also cherished as well.

I have a bank that is from my grandparents’ house. It’s a large deer, painted in gold. Then there’s the Buster Brown bank that sits beside it. Tropical bird feathers are lined up in glass containers. They were a gift from a student in my class several years ago and are reminders that even though I retired ten years ago, I still continue to teach.

The bookshelf is a kind reminder of the earthly journey I’m on, with each bit and piece a part of who I am this day.

David Lee

Another Journey Begins…

When I retired from full-time teaching ten years ago, I had no ideas as to how I was going to spend my extra time. A twenty-nine year career, all but one of which was spent teaching middle school, had left me thinking that it was time to hang it up. Yet here we are, eleven years later, still in the classroom, just underway with yet another interim position.

Of the fourteen interim positions I have taken since retirement, six have been maternity leave positions. The position I’ve just undertaken is one such, a third grade position. If you had told me I’d be willing to undertake teaching a grade with children that young, I would have questioned your sanity. Yet of the interim positions I have taken, eight of fourteen have been in elementary schools. A far cry from my first year of teaching in 1981, when I barely made it through a year with a fourth grade class.

Each position has had challenges of its own. In most cases there was a definite time frame that I knew I would be working. With each of the maternity leaves, there was a distinct set of lesson plans to be followed. Then with some of the other positions, I was left to my own devices as to how best to proceed with lessons.

Adding to the mix with the current position I’m filling is the special conditions surrounding the pandemic. There are no in-person classes on Friday, which makes it a four day work week. I will also be teaching all subjects, instead of focusing on one or two as is usually the case. I’m fortunate to have a great school to work at and a teacher who has laid out specific plans to be followed.

It should be an interesting set of weeks to say the least. I’m moving forward and excited to have the opportunity to do what I believe is my life’s calling.

Let’s keep the faith and trust the journey.

David Lee

To Fast or Not To Fast…that is the question

As we approach the season of Lent, I ponder whether or not to take my usual sabbatical from social media, namely Facebook. I know that Lent 2021 will begin on Wednesday, February 17 and ends on Saturday, April 3. For the past several years, my “doing without” has meant I stay off all social media during that time period. I would stop posting and reading and scrolling on Wednesday of this week and not resume until Easter Sunday.

This year’s decision is a bit more difficult to make. With the pandemic still in play, social media has offered a way to find out what’s going on in the world and community around me when other outlets have not been available. I enjoy sharing readings each day and a bit of humor and photography as well. In other words, I hope I add to people’s days as much as I do get enlightened by them.

So between now and Wednesday, I’ll need to decide what I’m going to do. I have considered making a modified absence, making the posts I make each day and staying off otherwise. It could be that I’ll do this Lent as I have done in the past and stay off all together.

The choice is not an easy one to make, especially this year.

David Lee

The Nightmare That Seems to Have No End….

It was a normal Thursday at school, March 12th, 2020. News of the coronavirus had found its way to us, but at that point it certainly didn’t seem to be much of a threat. How quickly that all changed over the weekend. That Thursday was the last day of in-person school for the year. And little did we realize how long it would have its grip on us all, even to this day and perhaps more so now as ever before.

At first, the virus was something that only people in Asia and Europe were having to deal with. Yes, it was deadly, but it was “over there.” Then the first reports came in from New York and other northern states. But once again, it was something “over there” that we didn’t really need to worry.

And here we are, nearly ten months later and it’s numbers have reached exponential proportions. It’s no longer a disease that “other people” are dealing with….it’s people I know, including members of my own family. No longer are those dying from the scourge “other people”….they’re people that I know personally. It really begins to strike home when you see friends who die from the virus.

Fear has been increasing as the virus’ life continues to wield its power over us all. A level of fear unlike any I’ve experienced before. There’s no running from it, for it can’t be seen. And yet, the invisible virus has us all wrapped up in fear that we or our family members might be next on the list.

I am in recovery and am glad to have some tools to work with during it all. They are truly being put to the test, as are we all. I recently picked the word “Faith” as my word for 2021 and it really is being put to the test. I know there’s very little I have any control over with the virus and life in general. But there are those things I can do to keep from getting infected and to keep those I love from harm’s way. And yes, that means I have had to physically separate myself from them. I also realize that may be the one thing that keeps them from contracting the disease. I’m more worried about passing it along to someone else than I am contracting it myself. Such is the way my mind works.

So these are my thoughts…they may be a bit scattered and random, but then so does most of the world we are living with this day.

May we all be reminded of God’s presence in our lives, for He is the Good Shepherd and if we have faith in Him, we shall not be in want, whether or not we understand that at the time and regardless of the circumstances we find ourselves in.

Stay safe and keep the faith, trust the journey.

David Lee

Mistakes,,,,I’ve made more than a few

Life has a way of teaching you the lessons you need to be taught, many times without your awareness. I recently have been humbled by events in my life that have caused me to realize that I don’t always make good decisions about the most important of things.

You think you’re doing well in life…everything seems to be going well and you have no reason to question what you’re experiencing. And then, over time, your situations change and you make decisions based on emotions you’re feeling at the time. Decisions that affect not only you, but others as well. And those decisions can cause unwarranted pain for others, which was never your intention.

Later on down the road, you have other circumstances come into play because of other decisions you’ve made and you are humbled to realize how very human you are. Capable of making mistakes, some larger than others, that cause your life to change forever. I’d like to say that it was all for the sake of teaching you important lessons, but that’s just my take on things. In the meantime, there are others you’ve left in your path that are suffering as well.

So just for today, I’m humbling myself with the situations I’ll be facing over the next several weeks. I know that change many times provokes fearful feelings and there are plenty of those that have been occupying my mind. But at the same time, I also realize that I don’t have control over a lot of what has transpired and what will transpire over the next several days and weeks.

Above all else, I’m reminded not to ever lost contact with my spiritual being. The decisions I’ve made when not in close contact with my God have traditionally not turned out well. It takes times and events such as those I face to help you realize never to lose sight of the sunlight of the Spirit.

So I pray this day for God’s guidance, wisdom, and strength…I pray for those whose lives I have left with unanswered questions, that they will experience happiness beyond compare. Meanwhile, I face my tomorrow and the next with uncertainty and anxious thoughts and more mindful to be careful with the direction I choose in this life.

David Lee

There is nothing to fear…

“The presence of fear is a sure sign that you are trusting in your own strength. The awareness that there is nothing to fear shows that somewhere in your mind, though not necessarily in a place you recognize as yet, you have remembered God, and let His strength take the place of your weakness. The instant you are willing to this there is indeed nothing to fear.” – A Course in Miracles

Help for Anxiety: Facing Your Fears Will Heal Your Brain | Psychology Today

Big Wave Dave’s “Spin of the Day” for Thursday, October 22nd.

LyricsShe got out of town
On the railway New York bound
Took all except my name
Another alien on Broadway
There’s some things in this world
You just can’t change
Some things you can’t see
Until it gets too lateAnd baby, baby, baby
When all your love is gone
Who will save me
From all I’m up against out in this world
And maybe, maybe, maybe
You’ll find something
That’s enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don’t receive you
You should turn yourself around
And come on homeI got a hole in me now
Yeah, I got a scar I can talk about
She keeps a picture of me
In her apartment in the city
Some things in this world
Man, they don’t make sense
Some things you don’t need
Until they leave you
And they’re things that you miss, you sayBaby, baby, baby
When all your love is gone
Who will save meFrom all I’m up against out in this world
And maybe, maybe, maybe
You’ll find something
That’s enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don’t receive you
You should turn yourself around
And come on homeLet that city take you in, come on home
Let that city spit you out, come on home
Let that city take you down, yeah
For God sakes turn aroundBaby, baby, baby
When all your love is gone
Who will save me
From all I’m up against in this worldNow well, maybe, maybe, maybe
You’ll find something
That’s enough to keep you
But if the bright lights don’t receive you, wellTurn yourself around, girl
Come on home
Yeah, come on home
Baby, baby, baby, baby
Come on home
Yeah, come on home
Yeah, come on home
Yeah, come on home
Baby, baby, baby, baby
Come on home